with Katy Perry.
I don't know if is the summer coming or if it is because she is really pretty. Most of time, I prefer listen to a different kind of music: Indie bands, classical rock or MPB.
But Katy Perry is not about music, is about fun!
The magical thing about believing in God is that some days, when you think nothing is going right, you can not move, life is just something sad that you’re obligated to pass thru, well in those days God revels Himself. He remembers us we have promises and He is faithful.
I’m living this kind of period for a long time, something like two years. But deep in my heart I know I can trust Lord. My hope is based on a theory: He didn’t create me to suffer. The truth is He loves me too much to let me suffer without a purpose.
When I think about these things (the promises, my faith), I know one day this agony will end. And I’m very thankful that, besides everything, I know God, I have an awesome husband and a lovely family, who needs adjusts, but they are a gift to me.
Some days, I miss smile and I’d like to remember being completely happy not with plans or buying useless stuff, but with life itself. All that I have now are plains and my effort. I keep them in my heart close to this faith that makes me continue.
So I vowed. I’ll not buy things with no purpose and benefits only me until December. I’ll not complain about the situation or people involved in it. I’ll be positive and show some disposal to life.
Most of time I feel sad with myself because I’m really a consumerist person. I want to have all that I can image and the idea of never get fulfilled makes me scared.
I can’t avoid! I always want a new book, dress, decorating stuff, cameras…
And now, I want this bike so bad!
I live in a small apartment, in a town where is not safe to walk alone. Even if you have company or want to take a risk, well it’ll be an up and down walk, because I live in a mountainous territory.
So, I want to travel, redecorate the home, a bike, and a thousand of other things. Am I contaminated with the consumerism of this century? Am I part of the “want to have society” that I criticize so often?
I think I need to incorporate more of the D.I.Y. philosophy! =)
I use the weekend and the holyday (September 7th in Brazil is like July 4th in US) to really think and realized I’ve been so selfish these last days. I was always worried about me, my problems, my life… And blaming everyone else for a life that is not as fun as I want it to be. Well, a read a quote somewhere that says “life is not something you live, is something you do”. The huge problem is that sometimes we stop doing to wait a better moment.
We get stuck in a place because work is not good, we have an argument with our mother or we are tired. But problems don’t disappear by themselves and life is not gonna be perfect anytime after our 12 years old, you know? We’re always going to face cruel people and bad days. Well, if we don’t stop to wait things get better, we will lose it all, because life is now.
My father use to say there’s only one day of the year we can really do something: today.
I do know this is not a brand new epiphany, but it was something I didn’t realize until now.
Oh man! Our first anniversary is coming, only three more days to go. Things are different then I though it would happen. I’ll have classes all weekend and a test. Two of our friends will celebrate their birthday too. So it will be a very busy weekend. But I think we can make time for each other a little bit. My husband is travelling a lot this week, and I really miss him.
I want our time together to be just great.
About the traveling, we decided to spend the next weekend resting in a place he knows, on the country side. Again, is not my 10 days trip, but is good to have someone with whom I can feel joyful anytime.
I’ll be out town the next few days. I’m going to rest, sleep and use the time to put myself together. I feel like I need to do a lot of thinking. I have business unsolved with my conscious and I’m going to put me and myself to look in the eyes and make some real good decisions about which path I’ll chose to lead me to peace and happiness. I have no idea if this is slushy or very deep, but, sometimes I feel a little confuse.
The fact is I’m working with a very mean woman. That kind who thinks she can do anything to get on top. The result is that she’s ruin my team self-steam and asking my superior to dismiss all my co-workers. Why? She’s jealous and insecure. She can deal with the idea of not being the best professional over here. We’re all good, equally good! And, for the first time of me being a manager, I really believe I have wonderful people, evolved with the huge project: make it work.
I want you to understand I like people, I like women, but they can transform in an office. So, if you do work in a competitive firm or business market, be careful, don’t talk too much about your personal life, concentrate and in all good things you have outside there (like family, friends, pets or anything that makes you feel happy) and you’ll survive; Oh! And of course, run away from the gossip!
I'm searching for ideas of colors to create that new room. So I spent some time imagining how I wanted it to feel like: happy, feminine, calm... Then I found the perfect color combination!
I'm falling for this colors composition! I want so bad my new room become something like this: